Reality just IS.
If you take away all the stories, what’s left? Just raw reality. A space of being that is love. Not our human perception of love but a love that has no bias, no story, no preferences. A love that loves so much so, that we are here and we exist. It’s present and eternal, existing here and now. We perceive reality through our ego and our biological system. This is our tool to be able to experience the reality of this world. I’m an observer of the world through my ego and yet this world is made up of stories. So many stories that we perceive, create and live. We judge these stories and yet there’s nothing to judged. I am the only one here among billions of others who are also the only ones here. I walk in between my egoness and my Godness.
I recognize when I fall into my egoic patterns that are life. I often still forget the awesomeness and beauty of the moment – which is all that is. We are all one. Our individual character is a drop in the ocean of this oneness. Reality is real and yet it isn’t. It is all right here now, if only we can step outside the story for just a moment in time. And even time is a construct of our egoic life.
I used to rely on the spiritual model of existence. Souls, entities, angels, demons, akashic records, soul-mates and so on. I used to think that if I could raise my vibration and ‘escape’ the matrix and crack the code of life, then I’d be free and happy. This belief took me on a wild goose chase for years. Even psychedelics kept me within this egoic story. And at times I had thought I had discovered the truth, only to fall back into the imagination of the mind and wanting the egoic fantasies of these angels and aliens. On some level it was mysteriously fun and gave my life a purpose.
Until I found the 5. Or it found me.
The 5 broke down all the layers of my self-delusions. Layer after the other, until I discovered a Truth so simple, yet so awesome that I couldn’t believe it was real. Was it truly possible that I had made all this up? Was I actually God, as was everyone and everything?
5 completely changed the paradigm of what reality is.
This nonduality is the direct recognition that there is no true separation between self and reality—between “I” and the world, the observer and the observed, the seeker and the divine. I began to understand that all distinctions are illusory constructs of the mind, and that in truth, there is only One and Oneness of which I was and am.
As the great sages have said:
“You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a drop.” – Rumi
“Be still and know that I am God.” – Psalm 46:10
“Tat Tvam Asi” (Thou art That). – Upanishads
By knowing the Truth on an experiential level I can then offer this truth to others. Offered in a softness and humbleness that isn’t pushy. This awareness is available for the other to see and recognize from one’s own Self. We cannot push, influence or convince.
We can radiate, offer suggestions and be confident in our peace and knowledge having been offered God’s grace of awareness.
Petra Valica
This article was written for educational purposes. I don’t condone the use of any illegal substances, and as with any potent psychedelic substance, please be responsible and use a supportive, experienced guide or facilitator who can contribute to a safe and meaningful exploration of the 5-MeO experience.
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